heartbreak

In heartbreak, I wish I could eat lilacs
So I could smell of something beautiful and hopeful.
I wish the tone of my body wasn’t so bashful.
I wish I could just walk up to you and lead you in a waltz
And spread the infection of dance.
I wish we could crawl into the still life and eat the fruit
And kiss with our mouths full of mangos and melons.
I wish we could fall into pools of dusk
With our clothes on and then shivering in the darkness
Hold hands and memorize the architecture of each other’s bones.
I wish you’d come to my bed, pale and uncertain,
And I’d bring color to your cheeks, your eyes.
We’d laugh until we could gulp no more air,
Hold hands, lay quiet, and watch the magic of the city rain.
In heartbreak, I wish I was a form of water instead of war
To provide cooling to the hearts we wore.
We would drive big red trucks knowing two roads would never meet,
Singing to the radio, enjoying the fact that 
The destination isn’t always the end of everything.
We’d find a pond near cathedral bells
And let their sounds scrape out the wombs in us
Of all the stillborn moments that deserve to be let go.
We’d kneel in peppers and strawberry patches
And give each other fruit to bear.
Eventually, the sun would start to set
And the taxicabs would be waiting
And we’d each drive off into the sunset
knowing we gave each other the sweetest heartbreak.